As I got on the interstate, my Jetta was soon enveloped in a thick, smothering fog. I got off of cruise control and slowed to a safer highway fog speed, and gripped the wheel with both hands, becoming extra alert, tense, looking for any hazards that might be in my very limited visual field.
Although I know the path well, suddenly I was disoriented. I squinted to see the mile markers, looking for a sign that I was where I should be on the commute. There were no street lamps to light the way, and I knew the next lights would not be until my exit. The fog pressed agains my windows, and my headlights sliced through the grey vapor, sending it off in streams over and around me.
My senses were heightened. I was uneasy, though - even though I had been down this road before, this was an experience that had to be handled today. In the moment. It appeared without warning, and it could just as easily dissapate quickly.
Eventually a dim light appeared in the near distance, and I relaxed a little. It was amazing how much that little hint of yellow light at the top of the hill gave me comfort. For a minute, I knew where I was, and I knew there was a way out of the darkness.
Divorce is a lot like that.
One day you are just cruising along, and then suddenly, the air is sucked out of the room. Everything is changed. In a moment. Or maybe it was over a period of time.
Once you start the journey of separation or divorce, though, then you are on the foggy path. The way things were done before are not the same. The landscape of your life is no longer something that is familiar to you.
You become anxious, sensitive, looking for direction or hope. You cling to anything that looks familiar to you, that makes sense. Your mind becomes foggy with lack of sleep, anxiety, emotion - the whirlwind of situations, legalities, and emotions that rushes over you.
In the mean time you careen down a road that you didn't expect to be on, and you can't see where it ends.
There is a light - there is a hope. It's so important to surround yourself with safe people that care about you. Family, friends, church family. The divorce recovery program is so vital and effective because there is someone who has been down the road, knows it well, and knows that there is an exit off of it. Knows that the fog will lift when the Son appears.
Know that we are praying for you. Know that God loves you - and He wants you to trust Him. Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr said "Take the first step in faith. You don’t have to see the whole staircase, just take the first step."
The first step is toward God. Telling Him everything. Crying out to Him. Giving your life to Him...and trusting that He will put you back on the right path.
The sun WILL come up again...
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